Lonely

Lonely

I might as well tell you whilst I'm drunk;

I still love you.

I wish I could make time stop and forget everything,

go back months and months

and live in that moment.

I wish I could go back to what we had, 

the laughs and the little things that felt so magical.

days out and weekends away,

movie days in bed with no makeup and just you.

fancy meals and magical nights in.

I can still smell you on my clothes. 

I can still hear your laugh in my head.

I can still taste you on my lips and I can still see you everywhere I go.

its not my fault,

you're gone,

and I cant accept the fact that

the coffee will always taste like you...

my feet don't dance the way they did with you.

my laugh isn't quite the same.

my smile doesn't light my eyes up anymore.

my head is heavy,

my heart aches now you're gone.

I let you in,

that's the hardest part.

I let you in,

you broke down my walls.

I let you into my heart,

and you managed to tear it apart.

here I am,

drunk,

lonely,

and trying to rebuild my walls without you