I want to know

I want to know

I want to know what you talked about,
what you said to make her smile.
I want to know how her laugh sounds,
what her voice is like.
I want to know whether your eyes smiled the same,
whether your eyes creased.
I want to know if she made your heart jump,
whether it jumped the way mine does every time I see you.

I want to know where she was,
I want to know where she lay her head and where her hair fell.
I want to know how you held her and how you touched her.

Did she hold you like I did?
Does she understand you like I do?

You've torn my heart apart,
you both have.
You've taken a side each of my heart and pulled,
tore away pieces...

I bled out,
my words and my feelings bleed out,
until nothing's left.

I want to know if she meant more to you than I did.
I want to know how happy she was;
I want to feel that.
I want to know